I have been pretty busy lately, and I needed to take a break from blogging. Don’t get me wrong, I love blogging, and I have many projects planned for this year, but I needed a break.
To make a long story short: I relapsed. I relapsed hard. My depression became impossible to deal with and for a while, I didn’t know what to do with my life. I was so glued to this romanticized image of what I thought writing would be like, that when I had one bad day of writer’s block I felt like a complete failure. I was so obsessed with doing all of this without any sort of higher education and I was desperate to become this amazing person in just a matter of months.
Once reality set in I realized that I didn’t really know anything. There was still so much to learn, and in order to learn, I would have to rely on other, more experienced people, to help me. So like any sane person, I applied to college and got accepted about a week later. I’m still under ‘undecided’, but I’m almost 100% positive about what I would like to major in. (Spoiler: It’s most likely going to be creative writing).
After that, I sat myself down on my laptop and forced out a complete outline of the novel I had written so many scenes for already. I wrote every major scene that would take place in the beginning, middle, and end. It took an entire day, but I did it. Now with this outline, I know where to go next when I get lost during my first draft. There isn’t much else to say about the matter other than I discovered that I can’t just wing it anymore. Sometimes I need to plan things out.
And lastly, I have embarked on a journey to read every Agatha Christie novel. There are 87 and I intend to read all of them. You may be asking “why?” Well, I’ll tell you why. I’m going to become the best detective that ever lived.
Kidding! Her novels are just really good and I think there is a lot to learn from them.
That is about it for my life update. I’m still alive, so that’s all I can really ask for. My life is about to get a whole lot busier in the next few months and I welcome the chaos with open arms and some little Debbie cakes that I keep in my backpack for when I’m having a bad day.